What the holy f*cking hell?

Yep. Mom let Roger come back. She said I was being coldhearted and selfish because I wasnt willing to sit down and talk to him and that I was “running from my problems”.

FUCK THAT.SHE INSISTS THAT HE HAS CHANGED IN FOUR MOTHER FUCKING DAYS. YOU CANNOT STOP BEING A DICK IN 4 DAYS AND YOU CAN NOT STOP YOUR OPPRESSIVE AND CONTROLLING AND ABUSIVE WAYS TOWARD PEOPLE IN FOUR DAYS. ITS A BUNCH OF SSHHHHHHIIT. I AM NOT GOING TO HAVE SOMEONE BE ABUSIVE TO ME IN ANY WAY AND THEN LET THEM BACK IN MY LIFE. EVER. IM TOO GOOD FOR THAT. FUCK IF ILL EVER LET HIM WORM HIS WAY BACK INTO MY LIFE.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER? WHY THE FUCK DID SHE KICK HIM OUT IN THE FIRST PLACE? CANT SHE FUCKING REMEMBER? AND SHE WANTS TO INSIST THAT HES FUCKING CHANGED? THATS A BUNCH OF SHIT. JUST LIKE ON TALK SHOWS WHERE A GUY IS ABUSIVE BUT THEN HE DOES SOMETHING NICE AND THE LADY LETS HIM BACK, AND THE CYCLE REPEATS ITSELF OVER AND OVER.

She has no control over the situation. She can tell me that she’ll kick him out if he does it again, but I dont believe any of it. He has manipulated her, and she has no control over it. She will allow him to do it again. And he undoubtedly WILL do it again.

Im going to go to the guidance office at my school.

Hell, Im going to start packing my stuff. Not that Im going to leave right now, but when the opportunity comes for me to leave, I want to get out as soon as possible.

I will never let someone walk all over me and hurt me and then take them back. I’ve only done that with my first boyfriend in the 7th grade, and it wasnt an acceptable experience.

But how could someone watch a VIDEO TAPE of a man being verbally abusive to their CHILD, and then let them back in the house not even a week later?

Its shit. I will never let myself be corrupted like that.

And through it all, I will retain my sense of self and my strength. Damn if he thinks he’ll ever get control of me. Its not happening. I retain MY identity and MY individualism. Fuck him. Im too strong for him.