What now

I dont know.. Im bored. I have free time on my hands. Today I talked to Tanya.. I might go to fort wayne w her sometime next week. I want to call Autumn tomorrow to see if I can stay the night w her.. I hope I can, because Im so bored being here all the time. =/ I saw Eric today.. we didnt do anything too special, just went to the music store, went to wal mart.. we just hung out basically. Hes cool though.. hes good for me to hang out with sometimes, because everythings usually cool between us, and I feel pretty relaxed. Even though we watch spanish channels on tv and it sometimes gives me a headache because my brain is trying to figure out what the people are saying..

Today I went to my sisters dance recital thing.. I was sitting there for 4 hours. It was ok, because it gave me something to do and I got out of the house. Hmm.. its been really hot lately.. like over 90 degrees the past couple days. Makes me just want to sit around in my room.. its what I usually do anyway. But its dumb because I feel lazy if i dont go outside.. I think if I feel like relaxing, then thats what I should do! While I have the opportunity, at least. I go back to school in less than 2 months, i think.. but hey, its my last year of school before i graduate. Its all wierd to think about.

I am just now thinking of my current relationship status w eric. Im pretty happy with him.. hes good to me, but sometimes im confused..thats probably because of some of the things in my past. Im scared to comment on the stability of our relationship, only because when I was with Simon, things were perfect one day and the next day he just dumped me out of nowhere. But hell, Erics different. Its too soon for me to be thinking about this stuff! Yesterday was our 2 month anniversary. I just need to stop worrying so much..

It all doesnt really matter anyway, in the long run. Im talking about death and what I will consider the most important things in my life.. I dont think these day by day occurences will matter at all. I just think a lot of people, including me, worry about a lot of stuff that just doesnt matter. But its just the way we are..

Ok, ive written enough for now..