Ticked off *edit

So I’m kindof a little ticked. I’m the kind of person that constantly tries to rationalize or justify any negative emotional reaction I have to a certain event, and that sometimes makes venting or explaining problems more complicated than it should be. Oh well!

I’m just a little hurt because Paul said today that he wouldn’t be surprised if I was sleeping with guys here. He said, "Well you’re female and guys like you". So? It just bugs me because he’s known me for a really long time (and we dated for 3 years of course) and I don’t know why he would expect something like that from me. Well, expect isn’t the right word. He said he wouldn’t guess that I was, but that it wouldn’t surprise him. What does that even mean? He was really kindof being an ass about it too, and I asked him why he would say that. He replied, "I don’t know. I guess I’m just lonely and I want to make sure you’re lonely too". Sure I’m lonely, lonely because he decided things wouldn’t work out between us. He decided I wasn’t worth fitting into his future plans. What right does he have to make me feel bad? I feel bad that he doesn’t have people to regularly hang out with there, but I can really only do so much. Sorry I have cool people that I work with and people to hang out with. God.

He said he wasn’t meaning to give me a hard time. I asked him if he really wasn’t meaning to give me a hard time, or if he did want to give me a hard time. He said he did. It bugs the hell out of me, and I feel like I have a right to feel this way. I’m sorry he’s lonely but we’re friends and he shouldn’t take his problems out on me. It’s not fair. I try my best to be supportive of him.

I feel like crying. ::sigh:: I guess I’ll go for a walk.
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EDIT:
This is a link I wanted to post, but didn’t want to create another entry for it.

This is a questionnaire that is supposed to tell you which candidate you are most in common with. I got Barack Obama. Sweet.