The end of an era **Pt.2

Well, Brent called me today. He was pretty miserable and said this agreement was like the worst mistake of his life. He said he had been thinking about me nonstop, and everytime he saw my picture he wanted to cry, and he had dreams about me and everything. It was nice to hear that he was thinking of me and regretting the decision. I always feel like I need to be strong. I feel that it’s unaccaptable for me to act weak. We have shared so much in our relationship, and sacrificed so much.. it just seems kind of pointless after everything that we’ve been through for us to give up. And thats what we did. I dont know why I always think that I have to be so firm with everything. I was reading one of Renee’s old entries, and she said something about life being too short to spend it alone. And I guess she’s right. I know that I should make myself happy.. naturally Im a very moody person and blow things out of proportion. But above all the tears, pain, and sorrow, Brent makes me happy. I mean, when we’re together, thats all that matters. Sure I may talk about him like he’s an asshole and that I hate him, but when I get past it all, he’s the one that makes me truly happy. He’s given me so much confidence, and has shown me a love that knows no boundaries. This guy stuck with me through SO much, and never once gave up on me. That is until we broke up, and we seemed to give up on each other. I think it’s right to have some sacrifice in a relationship. Like take Renee for example, she has definitely shown me that a relationship takes work. I mean, she hasnt given up on Toke.. I really do love Brent.. he has had such a big impact on my life, and has somehow given me courage to be independant and to accept myself. As with all relationships, there is a side of him that only I see. he is such a beautiful person.. i have never seen someone with such true intentions. Ive seen all the different sides of him, but he has never doubted loving me. Only someone who is really in love can understand how i feel.. i have grown up a lot within the past few days.. i used to think that i should always be tough and take charge because i thought it was the right thing to do. i have come to realize that its ok to be weak, and in some certain situations you have to go through tough times and work for what you want, and you can really create something beautiful. Even if I might end up with pain, i think to experience true love, and to share a bond with someone ,to be completely connected to them in every way, and to enjoy and cherish the time you have together is a risk worth taking.