Stupid Relationships

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So here I am feeling daft. Daft about everything. Daft, daft, daft. Why cant everything just be easy for a while? Especially this week, since all the shit seems to be happening at once.

Eric called me not too long ago. He asked me if we could be friends.. I just told him “uh.. yeah”.Then he wanted me to tell him if I decide to change my mind about us being together. He told me how he yelled at his supervisor, saying he hates his job, because we broke up since he works so many hours. I guess his supervisor just said sorry. And we were talking about something, and he says “Ya know what?I love you.”

And I started to feel bad, naturally. But I didnt know if it was because I still wanted to be with him, or if it was because of the natural grieving process of breaking up. But I guess its -really- too soon to tell. I dont know if I did the right thing. But I guess its normal for me to be thinking about all of this stuff, since Ive had stupid experience in stupid relationship matters before.Stupid “love”.

Who needs it?

But of course Im joking.. I can be quite the hopeless romantic. I like love, I really do. But looking back, I discover that I can be quite a demanding girlfriend. I actually feel sorry for someone whos in a relationship with me and would like to have control.. because I can be fiercely independent and one of the most stubborn people you’ll ever meet. Was i this way with Eric? Yes. I just didnt pay attention to it because it’s just the way I am. Silly me. I thought he was screwing around with me, when actually he was being a bit normal, due to our obvious fight for control in the relationship. A little compromise was always needed.

Oh got-damnit, here I go again rationalizing and analyzing. I get into the situation way too much.

Enough about my relationship babble. I’ll be sure to keep you all updated.