Silly ninny

Yay, it’s 10pm and I have indigestion. I know you care, don’t try to act like you don’t.

Today I pruned a tree or two, adjusted a couple of ready stakes, crammed into dirty and worn down vans with my Americorps teammates (coworkers?) and did a lot of office work. I was very happy to hear that the arborist and other member’s of the OCF staff had mentioned that I was a good pruner, because I should get the opportunity to do it more often. It might sound like a weird thing to enjoy, but I really do enjoy it. I also had a good time hanging out with my team today.

Like eggs? Watch this. (I think I’ve already sent this link to mom. I’m thinking Autumn might particularly like it though)

So I feel bad. Ian actually sent me flowers yesterday and has been asking a lot lately if we can hang out, no matter how many hints I try to drop letting him know I’m not interested. He asked if we could hang out tomorrow, and I said "Yeah maybe, but I just want you to know that my feelings for you are strictly platonic." At first he said that he was sorry I felt that way but that he had to respect my decision, but a few minutes later he said "Can you explain a little more why you feel that way?" What kind of question is that? Is he prepared to change depending on my answer or something? And damn, he apparently wants to meet up after work tomorrow so we can "talk about it". What is there to talk about? How fucking obvious can I be? Pardon my language, of course. Really though, I don’t have the time or energy to put into this. ::siiigh::

I feel bad though because he mentioned how it hurt him and how he can’t be around me for awhile. I think I’m just getting suckered though, and that I shouldn’t feel bad for not liking someone romantically. It’s not exactly the kind of thing you can just turn on and off at will (if so my life would have been a lot easier up to this point!).

Not to be a silly ninny, but it’s getting kind of late and I should try to sleep soonish. I’ll write a more detailed and more awesome entry later–tomorrow if you’re lucky!