Poetry

I think theyre must be something wrong with being a teenager. It’s like some curse to screw you up for the rest of your life. I mean, I am so unbelievably moody! One second I am fine, but the next I am all depressed and shiznit. Probably because I have a lot to think about.

I took a quiz to see which goddess I was, and I got mostly Artemis, which means I have an independant spirit. It also said I come into a relationship with my own terms which can put guys off, I guess thats true I am pretty stubborn =P It also means that I can be just as fine without a man, even tho I look for an equal relationship.

I’ve got this thing with poetry. Sometimes I just get the urge to write.. Like last night, I had this uncontrollable urge to write something, so I got some computer paper and a blue crayon and successfully wrote 3 2-page long poems in about 15 mins (I was writing big, so I dont know if they were 2 pages each..)Anyway, I think I am going to write the poems in one of my diaries (I have 2) And then burn the paper that I wrote the originals on. What I write is very private for me.. Sometimes I think I would rather have people read my personal (not public) diary, then to have them read my poems. I do share some of my poems, but not the ones that I have deep feelings with..One of the poems that I wrote is share-able. OK I guess I will write it, but keep in mind this was in the middle of the night, and I’m not going to edit it whatsoever because that wouldn’t be right~!~

~How do I know what to expect

When I cant trust my feelings

And my heart leads me

In so many wrong directions

I know what I want

But it seems out of my reach

The way to know me

Is to get past my foolish actions

And hear the things i don’t say

I cant have so much hope

When I dont know what Im hoping for

I wish you could see

The me that I dont show

And accept me

For who I really am

Until then I am hidden~

Well anyway, it sounds stuid now that I read it over! But oh well, this is my damn diary! Well, write later.. cyaz!