People are different

I hate realizing that people are different than what I have thought of them as…I guess I expect too much of people, but where would I be without my expectations? People have turned on me a lot, to where I was terrified to try to get to really know people.. and once I have started to finally let people in on my life again, and get to know me, there is always somebody who turns on me and changes everything.

I think I have let go of a childhood fantasy.. I mean, when you are a child, you see everything with a sort of innocence, having not yet experienced all of the things that make so many people hurt.. I think I overrated someone too much, thinking of them as perfect, and exactly what I wanted them to be.. but after some time, I have come to realize that they are no better than anyone else..they’re not very good, and definitely not perfect, and I dont know whats worse.. the kind of person they are, or the person in my head that they could never live up to.. I dont know. But either way, I am left feeling betrayed, for some reason..I guess Ive expected too much, even though I didnt know it, until now. But when my expectations werent met, I was kind of baffled.. and now I feel like I dont really know anyone at all. How am I supposed to know if theyre showing me their true self? There are so many sides to people that its impossible to tell.. some people hide intentionally, while others have grown so accustomed to it that its almost natural.. now, what am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to believe?