I dont like feeling so sensitive!

So blah. I feel CRAPPY. From breaking up with Eric? I dont know. It probably is.Part of this stupid process you have to go through when a relationship ends. Some call it: Grieving Process.

*sigh* Today I drove to Zesto’s and got some ice cream.. aside from that, I didnt really do anything. It was way too hot outside. Sunday is usually the day I spend with Eric, so it was wierd not having anything to do.But that was my choice though, and I feel it is for the best. I feel wierd because he didnt try to see me today. Not that I wanted to see him, but somewhere I probably still wanted him to see me. I dont know what hes thinking, and I will never know, because if I talk to him it wont help anything. Ive got to stop pushing aside my pain and deal with it. Itd be better if I had something to do during the day! How would it be better? I dont know.

I just talked to Marcus and Josh on the phone. It was interesting. It helped a LITTLE since I was feeling crappy, and it was nice to talk to people again. But I was/am sensitive (even though I hate being that way but I cant hide it) so Marcus kinda hurt my feelings. But I shouldnt have let him get to me, cuz he didnt mean anything by it..

I hope Ill get to feeling better soon, once Im sure of how much I dont really like Eric, and how that relationship would only be a burden in the near future. What the hell.. even if it wouldnt be a burden, the point is: I DONT LIKE HIM.

See, I do have feelings! Im not just bitchy and mean!Though I can be if the situation arises. Woo! Currently, it is August 5th. A new day, new beginnings! No more yesterday for me! It’s today! I think today I should go do something different, just for a change of pace. Yes.. I think Ill try to do something.. even if it may be small.. so wish me luck!

Ahh! Im sad. *sigh*

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And now.. hmm.. I think Ive written enough. Ill write later.. when I feel inspired.. !!!