him

this is something i found that i had written awhile ago..

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I dont know why i devote myself to loving someone who i utimately feel doesnt love me back.yet, something about him keeps me coming back and i dont know why.I yearn for love, to be loved, and to feel the excitment of a fresh relationship & I want that with him.It hurts, but i try to convince myself that this is not a realistic hope.But that naive part of me holds on to the possibility that things can happen, perhaps at a moments notice, when sparks can fly & light up this dim plac ein my heart.I long for the day that my feelings for him can be revealed, and a place in my heart that is always lonely could perhaps be welcomed by another & how I wish I could be in his arms, my spirit to be held & protected with his angelic grasp.I ponder sometimes how it would feel to hold him..his warmth, his soft scent, the feel of his skin.I yearn for the day that I can experience these things.Until then I will be quietly devoted,loving him from a far and patiently waiting for an opportunity. My love is strong, unlike my spirit,which will be weak until my love is revealed. But alas! The day will come!