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I seem to have been distracted from writing lately.. I might have been writing entries, but they were all half-ass… which is wierd for me, since I usually like to write down my feelings and talk about my day.. but I guess I havent felt like writing much..oh well. *shrugs*

Things are good, I guess. I want to say something: HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, MARCUS WATERS!

*cough* Yeah, everythings ok.. things with Simon are good. Pretty DAMN good, actually. Hes such a sweetheart.. so loving, affectionate, and caring.. not to mention hes so funny, and so adorable..sometimes Ill see him, and just think “Damn..” because he is so great.. and whenever I think about while Im with him, I just feel so lucky, and grateful that I am getting to spend time with him, and be his girlfriend, for an undetermined amount of time.. so I am really just enjoying it while it lasts.. I know how wonderful he is, and how he so great and yet so different from anyone I have dated before.. but its for the better. I always used to fall for the same type of guys, but Simons different.. I usually fall for guys because I think they are hot.. I mean, if I think a guys hot then I usually will pursue him.. but not with Simon! I have never thought Simon was -hot- (in the sense that I know I will never see him as an underwear model).. I mean, he is the cutest guy I have EVER seen, but hes not hot. Its hard to explain. But the point is, even though hes the most adorable guy Ive ever seen, something different drew me to him that had little to do with his looks.. no matter how cute he is, its like I didnt even pay attention to how he looked when I fell for him when I met him that night at the ACD festival.. but still, whatever it is that drew me to him keeps me intrigued, and interested.. to the point where I wont really look at other guys, because I think they dont matter.. and thats REALLY wierd for me, because I usually am a HUGE flirt, and will look at and size up any guy that comes anywhere near me.. even when I was dating Brent, or Daryl, or Aaron, or Matt.. etc, I would still do this. But now that Im with Simon, I dont even care about other guys.. Im just apathetic to all of them, since I have the one I want.. its just really wierd, and different for me. To think that someone could bring about this stuff in me, and somehow make me feel happy and, well, complete enough to where I dont have to look at guys when Im walking through the halls, or down the street, or at the fair! Its strange..really strange. Sorry, this is just new for me, thats all.

I guess I have stumbled on to a certain subject in this entry.. but thats ok! Well, I will continue another entry sometime.. cyaz!