And then there were.. 3?

I know I have a private diary, and Im not real sure why Im writing in here for a private entry.. I guess I just felt like it..

So, Ive been talking to Dan.. I really do like him a lot, keep in mind… Ive known him for a little over 2 weeks now, and he always makes me relaxed and I feel really comftorable when talking to him and everything. But here lately Ive been pulling myself away from him, not having such strong emotions.. I think its because I am afraid he’ll hurt me. But also because of something else.

It always seems that Im caught up with someone who isnt readily available, so then I meet this really cool guy and fall head over heels for him, which leaves me all screwed up about the first guy. The first guy is Dan. The second guy, undoubtedly, is Stephen Hodges. I dont know what it is.. people used to tell me a lot that I looked like him. (Strange,right?) Well, Ive started talking to him since Ive been in photography, and he is sooo cool.. from his style, his sense of humor, to even his facial expressions. He is also really cute, and I mean reeeeeeally cute. He bought me an Invader Zim folder over the weekend, because I threatened to steal his. And of course I told him I loved him several times for it. I always seem to flirt with him.. I just cant help it. And if Im being too much, he doesnt seem to mind because he still talks to me.Then today he asked me if he could take my picture, and I let him.. well, he had to do it twice because in the first one I turned my head. But I told him he might as well waste the other 7 on me, and he said “sounds good”. So we were walking up the stairs together, talking about particularly nothing, and I leaned over and smelled him and said “You smell nice” and he was all surprised at that and started smelling himself.. then he told me he doesnt hear that much but its cool because he likes to smell nice. And he always smiles at me, and it only makes me melt because he is so damn cute. But I think hes friendly with a lot of people, so Im not sure if he really likes me.. but I dont know. I just know I have developed a big ol’ crush on him. And I dont know what to do about it. Flirt and giggle uncontrollably, perhaps? ::smacks forehead:: Damn, he really is cute. Does it sound like he likes me?

And then a guy in my German class.. I always thought he was a little cute but I never talked to him until today, because I had to work with him on something. he was really cute because he kept smiling and everything. I dont know if he likes me either, but I still think hes really adorable.

So what about Dan? Hell, I dont know.. I felt myself pulling away from him last night, and it just hasnt stopped. I mean, I really do care about him and hes so sweet and everything, but today its just like I have opened up completely to new guys.. steven ::sigh:: as well as the other guy and probably other people. Hell, I dunno.I dont know why this always happens to me.. I guess Im really not one for long distance relations with anyone.. Im not gonna give up on anyone quite yet, though.

::crosses fingers:: WISH ME LUCK!!!