A few minutes later, another entry!

I just saved that last entry.. and now I needed something to do. I will only be online till roger gets back from his AA meeting, in a half hour or so.

I just got a huuuuuuuuge urge to delete a big chunk of my previous entry, but Im trying really hard to fight the urge, because what I put in there is the way I really feel, and I dont wanna keep anything inside, even if im worried of how people will feel. Im doing the right thing in some capacity, arent I? I bet noone is online because theyre all doing something cool.. but I have nothing to do. Poor, poor Debbie.

-And then Ill sing and dance, Ill play for you tonight, the thrill of it all.. dark clouds may hang on me sometimes, but Ill work it out-

And now, Autumn just left me a message on my internet answering machine.. she sounds kinda ticked ! Probably because Ive been comlaining about her… but i guess I gotta call her back. *sigh* Im kinda scared! But I guess I should go..

——edited entry——

Well, I called her. She wasnt mad, she hates answering machines. All she said was she didnt have work tomorrow, so could pick me up or come over here or something. Its all fine with me, because you know, Ive been feeling so bad. I JUST HOPE SHE ACTUALLY DOES IT THIS TIME! But now shes supposed to go to her aunts house and email me, so im waiting for that, hopefully it will be before roger gets back.

MARCUS–WHERE ARE YOU? I NEED TO TALK TO YOU! ONLY TO KEEP MY SANITY.

Well, I guess I’m off.

ratsushi

July 20, 2002

Hey there Debbie! Mrf, it sounds like you’re having a tough time. I honestly know how it is, truely I do.. Like last summer, everybody was gone, and I was alone, heartbroken. But you must do your best to keep yourself happy, or atleast occupied. I had the stinky petstore with weird guys! But it helped alot, I guess.. If you like to watch something weird, I have my anime–>

that you can borrow, my entertaining family, my rats that would love to be handled with, my brother who doesn’t go out much! I certainly don’t mind, I just like to see you happy. =) You should email me sometime..please? And for your relationship with Marcus: Of course longs have gone wierd! It’s typical for a long distance relationship. Toke and ours got pretty wierd to with–>

That dirty Mexican guy, Alex, and Line, of internet fools, but we love each other even more, even through all the hurt and pain. It’s suppose to make the relationship stronger in a sense because they are tests on who you are and how you two work together. <=) For Eric.. Well..not really my business, but like in your pervious entries, don't be so dependent on him. Make yourself happy. =) -Rene

Yeah…urvrything she said. By the way…I was half asleep last night when I read these entries, and your email. Now I’m awake and can make more sense of it all. 🙂

DEBBIE SORRY I DIDNT EMAIL I JUST WOKE UP TO ILL COME GET YOU SOON I HOPE YOU GET THIS PLZ DONT BE MAD AUTUMN