July 10, 2012

WHO I AM!

While swimming this morning at the pool I realized that I am just an unhappy person. I might have no reason to be so but I have to accept that I am. Even though I list my gratitudes here and I know how lucky I am I still am unhappy. Mostly I guess because I think of everything I want to have and do and don’t. I know this is childish and I need to get over it.
Anyhow I swam this morning and now I’m home. Home sweet home! A whole afternoon with nothing special to do. I can nap! I can work on my crafts! I can watch TV! I can read my excellent book, "THE HYPNOTIST." So there is no reason for me to be sad or unhappy!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess my debts are causing me a lot of stress. I wish I was the type to just DEMAND some money from him. He did get the 5000 from my BIL!!!!!! I know he is fed up with what he perceives as my overspending. I don’t know why he intimidates me! He is also good at just avoiding the issue. If I don’t bring the subject up he acts like a mute. I am completely fed up.
Anyhow off that track. I am going to watch TV, have a nap and wait for him to come have lunch.

offmychest

July 11, 2012

I really don’t understand why you just don’t ask him, all he can do is say no anyway but maybe he will say yes. If he truly loves you wouldn’t he want to help you out of your mess? I just don’t get it.

FRIDAY'S CHILD

I would think that your husband would be willing to pay off some of that debt if you would be willing to cut up all credit cards and promise not to over-spend anymore.

TheWoodsprite

I would think he’d pay off your debt, because really, you two have been married a long time and are likely to stay married, so it’s HIS too, no matter whether his name happens to be on it or not. You’re supposed to be partners! He seems to not understand that! hugs, Nicky

“I know he is fed up with what he perceives as my overspending.” Why do you say he perceives it that way? Is it not true? I mean, you’ve said often that you overspend. But yes, I wish you felt comfortable enough to ask. Maybe you could make some kind of negotiation – i.e. you give him all your credit cards. That would definitely be win-win.

As for your unhappiness, I’ve mentioned this before, but would you not consider volunteering somewhere? Even one or two hours a week? It would definitely add reward and purpose to your life; so many people say they never felt happiness till they helped others, and they were filled with joy. You could do a reading program at a library with kids (i.e. one kid one hour a week, just read to/with them)

… or you could do something with seniors, read to the blind, walk some dogs, be a ‘friend’ for a new immigrant, there are so many opportunities!

Elaine

Have you thought about asking your husband to give you money on a weekly rather than monthly basis? From a stranger’s point of view, I see a husband who is trying to make sure that you have enough money for food and clothes, that there is always a roof over your head, that you can go on trips, and that the money won’t suddenly run out.