UP LATE

Hubby and I are nervous wrecks. We don’t discuss it but I know he is worried about me and I am worried about myself. A few minutes ago I took my sugar and it was three. TOO LOW!!!!!!!! I had some orange juice and then some cereal. I think I am pretty sure what caused it. One of the pills I bought at the HEALTH FOOD store so I have cut them all out!!!!! I thought I needed to make sure my sugar level was low but now see that it was TOO low. I just can’t wait to go home and visit my own doctors to see what they think is going on.
This morning I went to the clubhouse to help hang paintings. These were all done by seniors here. Some of them were amazing. I can’t wait to hear who wins. On the other hand I don’t see how the judges can choose winners from hundreds of paintings, sculptures etc. I thought I was walking with the judges but in the end someone else was chosen which was fine with me. Hubby drove me to the bank so I could make a deposit. I also wanted to speak to the manager about the overdraft charges. I still don’t understand why it happened but I didn’t have the patience to pursue it so will just have to be much more careful. Then we went to OLIVE GARDEN for lunch. It’s a good idea as we both had salad. Hubby also had soup and I had chicken breast with vegies.
Then we came home and I slept a couple of hours. I guess that’s why I’m still up at 1.
Tonight our friends took us out for my birthday. We went to PORTERHOUSE. The three of them had lobster. I ate roast beef which was ok. I chose it because it wasn’t too expensive. They were treating.
When we got home I packed. I’m taking a huge valise. Who knows what I will want to wear. Also I have to change at least twice a day. Anyways who cares? It’s not like going by plane where they charge by poundage etc.

Although I’m looking forward to the cruise I wish we were going home. I’m scared. I’m tired! I just want to be home – home will b a little strange as I cleaned up everything before I left. Poor hubby! His desk and stuff is all "hidden." I hope he won’t be too upset.

Anyways I guess I should go to sleep. It’s an escape which I welcome.

I just want to cry and scream and yell. I want someone to tell me everything will be ok. I want to wake up in my new home!!!!!!!! One day at a time………….one hour at a time……………one minute at a time. I can do it but still…………… HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope on the cruise I can just relax and enjoy……
So I better go to bed and hopefully sleep through the night.