UNCOMFORTABLE AND UNWELCOME

 I just came back from my son’s house. I always feel so unwelcome and uncomfortable when I’m there. Not so much when we are invited for supper but when I bring the children home after I’ve had them for a few hours. I brought my grandson home about eight. My son was busy on the phone and on the computer. My DIL was running around doing the washing, looking through their school bags etc. I don’t know why they can’t sit down and talk to me for five minutes. I actually wouldn’t even go in but my son is always saying he wants to see me!!!!!! I spent some time looking through my granddaughter’s schoolwork and then I picked myself up and left. Maybe I could stay until after the kids are in bed but I just felt that I was being ignored and not respected at all. I can’t help but compare it to my ex DIL who always sat down with me in the living room and gave me her full attention. She also works full time. I know I shouldn’t compare but I can’t help it.
Anyhow I did have a wonderful afternoon with my grandson. We painted the wall in my craft room. We were both a mess when we finished but it was so much fun. I just love him to bits. I will see him more often!!!!!! I don’t know why but my son does not want me to take him when he is with his mother so I won’t but WHY??????????? I just hate this divorce business.
So I just had to get this out. I am going to leave this for my children. I don’t know if they’ll read it or not but I want to be able to write what I want. I don’t want to hurt them but maybe by the time they read this they’ll understand.