TO MOVE OR NOT TO MOVE

SINCE I LAST WROTE I AM GETTING COLD FEET ABOUT MOVING.

I FEEL VERY COMFORTABLE HERE! THIS IS MY HOME!

I THINK I WILL START “DOWNSIZING” WHILE I’M HERE.

I WILL START GETTING RID OF STUFF. I HAVE TO CONTROL MYSELF FROM JUST THROWING STUFF DOWN THE INCINERATOR.

IT WILL BE LESS TO MOVE IF AND WHEN I DO.

I WILL START LOOKING AT DIFFERENT CONDOS/APARTMENTS BUT I AM NOT GOING TO RUSH.

I HAVE BECOME A RECLUSE. I AM VERY HAPPY STAYING HOME. I DON’T FEEL LIKE GOING TO THE SHOPPING CENTER.

I DON’T FEEL LIKE SHOPPING. I GUESS IF I STILL FEEL LIKE THIS I WON’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY.

I WISH I HAD A CLOSE FRIEND. SOMEONE I COULD DO STUFF WITH. SOMEONE WHO REALLY CARES ABOUT ME. I KNOW PEOPLE CARE ABOUT ME BUT I AM NOT THEIR PRIORITY. MY BEST FRIEND DIED QUITE A FEW YEARS AGO.

THE WEATHER MAY HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH MY MOOD. IT IS SO GLOOMY! RAINY ETC.

I AM PLAYING MAH JONGG TOMORROW AND THURSDAY BUT IT FEELS SO EMPTY. MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE CONTINUED WITH MY COUNSELLING BUT WE WEREN’T GETTING ANYWHERE.

I WENT FOR A BLOOD TEST YESTERDAY MORNING. I GO TO THE DOCTOR ON FRIDAY. I HOPE SHE HAS RESULTS BY THEN.

THAT’S IT FOR NOW. THANKS TO ALL FOR YOUR COMMENTS. THEY REALLY HELP.