TO GO OR NOT TO GO

I AM DEBATING WHETHER OR NOT I SHOULD GO TO THE SYNAGOGUE TOMORROW MORNING.

I USE TO HO ONLY ON THE HIGH HOLIDAYS.

AFTER MY HUSBAND DIED I STARTED TO GO EVERY SATURDAY IN FLORIDA. I ENJOYED THE EXPERIENCE. IT WAS A HUGE SYNAGOGUE WITH A CHOIR, MANY PEOPLE AND I ENJOYED THE RABBI’S SPEECH.

WHEN I GO NOW THE EXPERIENCE IS FAR DIFFERENT. THE TURNOUT ON SATURDAYS IS VERY SMALL. I NEED MY HEARING AIDS FIXED SO I DON’T HEAR A WORD OF THE RABBI’S SPEECH. THERE ARE VERY FEW WOMEN. TEN IS THE MOST. THE WEATHER HASN’T BEEN GREAT SO I GUESS THE WOMEN DON’T WANT TO WALK OVER. I DRIVE BECAUSE I AM NOT RELIGIOUS. I GO/WENT BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WOULD MEET PEOPLE. THERE IS NO ONE TO MEET. I ALSO FIGURED THAT IT IS SOMETHING TO DO SATURDAY MORNINGS.

SO NOW I AM NOT SURE WHAT TO DO. THERE IS LIGHT, VERY LIGHT REFRESHMENTS AFTER THE SERVICE. I DON’T STAY BECAUSE I FIND IT HARD TO STAND. I WAS PLANNING TO ASK THEM TO PUT CHAIRS AROUND BUT I HAVEN’T. I GUESS THEY DON’T WANT TO ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO SIT AROUND. ALTHOUGH I DON’T KNOW WHY UNLESS IT IS MORE EXPENSIVE TO PAY THE “JANITOR” FOR THE EXTRA TIME PEOPLE WOULD SIT AROUND.

SO I GUESS I’LL DECIDE IN THE MORNING. THIS IS A QUIET WEEKEND FOR ME. NO PLANS WITH FRIENDS AS THEY ARE BUSY ELSEWHERE. I AM GOING TO SEE A PLAY ON SUNDAY.