TO CHANGE OR NOT TO CHANGE

I have just realized that the saying ‘PEOPLE DO NOT CHANGE” is probably true. I think it is for me anyways. Years ago I took a course at university. We had to write a paper about ourselves. I wrote about how judgmental, critical and prejudiced I was. I still am!!!!!!!! I wrote about how I would change myself but I never did. The only thing I can say is I usually keep most of my feelings under wrap unless I can’t. Then people better watch out.
Also I realize that I write/complain about the same things here. I complain about the same things. I never do anything about it. For some things I don’t know what to do. How do I stop worrying about my hubby’s memory? How do I stop worrying about getting sick?
How do I just appreciate my days? Why am I always in a foul mood?
I have so much to enjoy and appreciate but I don’t.
For example right now I couldn’t sleep so I got up.
I shredded some bills. I am getting rid of old bills. I am listing our expenses. When we finally go to the financial advisor I want to know where our money goes. Hubby still has to make an appointment. he’s waiting for the person to call back.
I knit a little. I had to rip so many times that I am taking it slowly. I don’t know if it will make a difference but I am trying.
I got rid of some junk in the kitchen. We are playing bridge here on Tuesday night so I need everything put away.
Hubby has a repair man coming tomorrow to put up more shelves for his cars. He has them in a large “bedroom.” He has to branch out into other parts of the house because he has too many. I stopped buying as many books because there is just no room in this condo for all our hobbies. I still think I should have had that bedroom for my hobbies and he should have used the one I have. I need more room. I keep telling him we should change but he won’t.
My right food is suffering from neuropathy. It is not a pain but bothering me anyways. The doctor gave me LYRICA to take but it has so many side effects I am afraid. So I find that I can’t sit too long because it is so annoying. Walkingaround I can forget about it.
So now I think i will go back to bed. The shredder gets over heated so I can’t finish at one time. I guess I will tomorrow. Nothing on the schedule except swimming. If it’s nice I’ll go by bike.