THINKING

When I get into bed I start to think. THINKING IS NOT GOOD FOR ME WHEN I’M IN BED. I started to think about what I would do if I had to care for my hubby. He does seem to forget a lot but so do I. Today he forgot his medication and passport at the trailer. I am happy to write that I am not as upset as I use to be. It use to make me crazy. I know that I can and will handle whatever I have to. I also realize that I may be the one to go downhill first. It doesn’t make me happy to think how old we are and the future.
I said to him tonight that if I was in charge I would sell our three homes. That would cut down on our responsibility and expenses. So I wouldn’t go to Florida. So what? If the weather is bad I’ll stay in. I can always take a cruise or just travel. I know I shouldn’t be thinking like this but I do.
I would get a smaller condo in this building. It would be a lot cheaper!!!! I would love to cut down on our living expenses. If I was in charge I would get rid of the trailer as fast as I could. I would save on the gas there and back, the rent for the space at the campground etc. In Florida I would sell my condo and make some good money. No more going there and back. No more condo expenses etc etc. So I would be here for the winter. There are worse things. Anyhow now that I’ve written about this I hope I can fall asleep.
It bothers me a lot to think about the future. I know I need to take one day at a time. It’s so hard sometimes. That’s why I keep so busy. It stops me from thinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I guess I’ll say goodnight and try to get some sleep.