THINGS I REALIZE-read
I am not a happy person.
I may be depressed.
I always look at the cup half empty.
I realized that yesterday after my "egg decorating" class. It went ok but when I came out I was sad instead of happy and content.
I am not sure why. Maybe because there was only one other woman at the class besides the teacher. She came late and left early.
We talked a lot about what would happen when we would be older. How would we cope? Where would we live?
The teacher is very frail and forgetful.
I did work on a plate and three eggs so I was productive even though I didn’t finish anything but that is ok. I have next week and many other weeks.
I know I am worried about my grandson who is having his tonsils taken out tomorrow. I don’t know if I’ll go to the hospital. I will ask my son in the morning.
We played bridge last night. I enjoyed it but realized after that I had no interest in going for coffee or being friendly with one of the women there. In fact I am not really a friendly person. I stay alone. I don’t initiate conversation or getting together usually.
I think we need new blood in the egg class. Next week no one else will be there. It’s good because I have the teacher’s undivided attention so why was I gloomy when I left there.
I think that’s just the way I am.
I am also thinking about going to the trailer this weekend. I am thinking about copping out but don’t know how my hubby will feel. I feel guilty that I don’t want to go.
I don’t want to go because there will be no internet.
I don’t want to go because I don’t think too many of our friends will be there for the weekend.
I don’t want to go because I am comfortable at home.
I don’t want to go because I will have to make a food order. I have enough food here.
Once I am there it’s ok just like in Florida but when push comes to shove I just rather stay home.
What is wrong with me? Why can’t I be content, happy? I wonder if it’s time to talk to my doctor but I don’t think I would like to go on medication but maybe, just maybe I would be better off. I go through days ok. At other times I start to cry.
I guess I better go back to bed. Tomorrow is bowling if I don’t go to the hospital. Then my cleaning lady is coming so will stay here in the afternoon. I haven’t seen her since we are back from Florida.
You really should talk to your doctor about this. You have so many good things in your life, and yet you often feel sad and depressed…. probably there’s medication that would help you. Depression is no fun, and you deserve to feel better! hugs, Weesprite
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My daughter seemed very much like you are and she talked to her doctor and got on pills and she is a much happier person now. It was a good thing for all of us. take care of you
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I actually think we are born this way — some happy optimists, some unhappy pessimists. I have four children, two of which are happy optimists, and two of which are unhappy pessimists. I happen to be a happy optimist and I am so thankful that I am. It would be awful to go through life with a cloud of doom hanging over me – but I don’t think there is much we can do about it!
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I get like that from time to time. It seems like no matter how many good things I have I just get in a mood and can’t get out of it.
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actually Grace and I are usually the only ones in attendance at our worship meetings on Sunday nights. We have had company from time to time and we had a couple of friends that came in the beginning but it wasn’t their cup of tea.
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these hobbies and interests of yours will help keep you young. Ageing is as much about attitude as about the physical. hugs P
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