NONGRATITUDE ENTRY

I DO HAVE SO MUCH TO BE GRATEFUL FOR SO WHY CAN’T I BE GRATEFUL?

WHY DO I ALWAYS SEE THE CUP AS HALF FULL?

WHY CAN’T I JUST RELAX AND BE?

WHY DO I ALWAYS COMPLAIN?

WHY AM I NEVER HAPPY WITH WHAT I AM DOING?

WHY DO I ALWAYS NEED/WANT TO DO MORE?

WHY DON’T I HAVE ANY FRIENDS THAT I ENJOY BEING WITH?

WHY DO I NEED SO MUCH AND YET I’M STILL NOT HAPPY?

I AM LUCKY THAT HUBBY DOESN’T GET RID OF ME!

ON THE OTHER HAND HE IS THE MOST BORING MAN I HAVE EVER KNOWN.

IT’S A SHAME THAT WE DON’T ENJOY ANYTHING THE SAME.

HE LOVES GOLF.

I LOVE SWIMMING!

I LOVE ART. HE APPRECIATES WHAT I DO BUT WON’T TRY.

HE CAN SPEND HOURS PLAYING GAMES ON HIS IPAD. MY ATTENTION SPAN IS VERY VERY SHORT. I ALWAYS WANT TO BE DOING SOMETHING ELSE.

I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE ANSWER IS. I AM TIRED OF MY ATTITUDE.

YOU’RE RIGHT!!!!!!!!! I HAVE TO CHANGE IT.

BUT I AM TOO NEGATIVE.

I ALWAYS WANT/NEED MORE.

I DO NEED SOME NEW FRIENDS. ONES WHO HAVE SOME TYPE OF AMBITION.

FLORIDA WILL BE OK AS WE KEEP FAIRLY BUSY THERE AS COUPLES. OF COURSE HUBBY GOES GOLFING BUT THEN I GO SWIMMING AND DO STAINED GLASS.

I STILL WONDER IF I SHOULD TAKE UP GOLF. I ALMOST DID BUT THEN STOPPED BECAUSE I WAS/AM AFRAID OF THE SUN! WHEN I GO BACK TO THE DERMATOLOGIST I WILL DISCUSS IT WITH HER. MAYBE IT ISN’T WORTH BEING MISERABLE. MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER TO PLAY GOLF AND TAKE MY CHANCES WITH THE SUN. I KNOW THERE ARE CLOTHES TO WEAR AND SUNTAN LOTION. THE OTHER THING IS I KNOW I AM NOT GOOD BEING OUT IN THE SUN. I WILL BE HOT AND MISERABLE. MAYBE I AM BEING TOO NEGATIVE.

I HAVE TO MAKE PLANS WITH FRIENDS BECAUSE HUBBY WON’T UNLESS IT’S GOLF. I GET TIRED OF DOING ALL THE PLANNING.

OY VEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE BEING SUCH A GROUCH! 

I HAVE TO CHANGE MY ATTITUDE!

I WILL!

I WANT TO!

I BETTER!

GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE; THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.