JUST ME WHINING AND COMPLAINING AGAIN – OK

OY!!!!!!!! We just arrived. Our plane was an hour or more late so we had to wait at the airport for at least three hours. Hubby has a bad cold so feels shitty. I feel CRAPPY too. The plane ride is only three hours but it felt more like twenty. There is no where to move and it was hot on the plane. Now we just found out that my daughter will be at least three hours late so instead of picking her up at ten we have to go about one. Our friends picked us up and wanted us to come for supper but I was so NOT in the mood. I just needed and want time alone. I am so close to telling hubby that I don’t want to come back to Florida anymore. For me I just want to be ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t help feeling like I do. I am just so tired, so fed up and so weepy. Some is probably from losing my brother and mother but I have felt like this at other times too. I am NOT a social being. I don’t enjoy being with people. I find it an effort to talk to people. The week sitting shiva and being with my sister did me in. My computer doesn’t go online here. I called my son and he can’t help. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I wish I had the courage to pack up and go home.  

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December 26, 2004

Hope you feel a bit more hopeful when you are rested…

December 26, 2004

You are tired. Go to bed.

I do think you should tell your husband how you feel (leaving out the part about wanting a divorce) — just tell him that you are really dealing with some awful feelings right now. He may be more understanding than you think. I mean, who forces someone to be social when they don’t want to? All this isn’t good. You need to be back home with your grandson and things that bring you joy …

December 26, 2004

Wait a minute, you had a female lover at one time? Wow I missed THAT part of the story didn’t I? :O

December 26, 2004

sorry to hear you feel so helpless and hopeless right now…I’m sure much of it is exhaution and grief…but I do understand your needs to be alone. We all need that…even social creatures…its about balance. Hope you do what is right for yourself before you get ill too. hugs

December 27, 2004

I’m so sorry to hear that you’re feeling so bad. I hope that things improve as you recuperate from your trip.

December 27, 2004

If you had a lover once, then that kinda shows you DO have some guts to do what you want to do. (even though you broke up with her rather than get a divorce, THEN…. who’s to say what you might do NOW?) I hate to think of any person stuck for the rest of her life in a situation of unhappiness. But before you do anything, you need to rest. Just put your foot down and say you HAVE to….

December 27, 2004

…go off by yourself for a week or so to rest and recup. You really do anyhow; it would not be a lie or an exaggeration. You need it for your mental, physical, and emotional health. Perhaps a week of rest and solitude would help you feel better able to asses the situation. Please take care of YOU. You’re a neat person; you deserve care. hugs, Weesprite

December 27, 2004

My husband and I are the same way… I like to be alone, he doesn’t. Explains a lot about my latest entry… I think he was hoping I would go to the store with him. Thing is, I didn’t want to, and really, I CAN’T if I ever want to get the project done. {{{hugs}}} Hope things get better…

December 28, 2004

OH, I hope you start feeling better about things soon. Sounds like it would do you some good to tell everyone to bug off for awhile!!