I PUSH PEOPLE AWAY

I am wondering why I don’t reach out to people. I push people away. Instead of calling friends and family I do the opposite. I avoid contact. It doesn’t make sense. I haven’t called my children in awhile. I am not sure why. Do I want to avoid responsibility and attachment to avoid getting hurt? Today I received pictures that my grandchildren made. Why am I not grateful and happy? Why don’t I rush to call and thank them? I think to myself it isn’t a big thing. Yet to them and their mother I am sure it was a very BIG thing and my DIL had to go out of her way to mail the package. If only I could figure these things out.
At times I just want to avoid obligations etc. BUT I AM NOT REALLY SURE. I love my children and grandchildren and would love to see them more and share their lives. At other times I just want to be alone. Peace and quiet! I guess I am just a very confused woman!

gray tabby

January 19, 2012

as much as i love blake and my daughter, there are times i have no desire to be around them. it’s just the way it is. take care,

I am the same way, which is why i made the resolution to make more of an effort this year. I guess there are many reasons people do this kind of thing. For me it’s almost always laziness. I’d rather do X or Y than spend the next 20 minutes on the phone. Sometimes I put it off because I have so much that I feel needs to get done, and then I don’t even take 5 min to reply to a simple email. 🙁

Pooh Bear Granny

I think as we age, we do sometimes find a need to be alone. I love my grandchildren and children but I have times when I need to be by myself. Also each of us is different, I have always been one who loves spending time with others. My mother was like you in that aspect. We all have our own ways. Don’t fret, just go along with how you feel. Our feelings are uniquely ours and that is a good thing.

offmychest

There is nothing wrong with wanting to be alone unless you start to deliberately isolate yourself. There is nothing wrong with you, just accept yourself the way you are and things will be better.

Tornado

I feel exactly the same way you do. But in my situation, my kids (other than my DIL) don’t reach out to me either. I think if I had a daughter instead of all sons or if the boys father were still alive, it would be different. The older I get, the more I enjoy solitude.

concern

I noticed a couple noters saying they felt that way more as they got older, but I’m 28 and love and need my alone time!