I NEED TO SEE MY GRANDSON

Lately I have started to think that I must see my grandson alone! I am not sure how to manage it since I’m not driving. I will have to think about it! I know my hubby or my son would drive me over but I want to spend some alone time with him. I guess they could drop us off at a mall. I think I’ll send an email to my son. I never did ask what they told the kids about no more BUBBY days. To be honest I just want to take my grandson. I just feel such a close bond with him and lately it’s really bothering me. I will take my other grandchildren too but I don’t have the same "pulling" towards them. Why do I think they don’t care about me???????
No driving has been hard on me and it seems to get harder every day. I am home too much. I will be so happy if the doctor tomorrow tells me I can drive. I will take off like a shot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow we are also going to see a nutritionist. It should be interesting. I am anxious to find out if there is a good cereal for a diabetic to eat.
I am wondering what to do with the paper journals I have. I don’t have the patience to read them now. I guess I’ll just put them into a separate box and read them when I can. I am so worried that I wrote something I don’t want them to read. I have reread most of this diary so not worried too much about it. The name is in our safe so that’s taken care of.
I appreciate all your advice about my MEMORY NIGHT. You’re right. I don’t think I’ll invite "strangers." Why complicate the evening.
I just about finished my sister’s scrapbook. I am doing two more pages and then that’s it. Next I will work on my own. In July we will be going to Toronto to celebrate my sister’s 80th birthday. My nephews will look after it. I hope to go to a hotel in downtown Toronto for a day or two with her so we can spend quality time together.
I better get back to bed. Tomorrow is a long day. Bridge at night!!!!!!!!!