I AM SO FED UP

Once again I am very angry, frustrated and totally fed up. I had a message from my sister last night. She wants to invite her son’s very new in-laws to the supper I am making in Toronto in a few weeks.
I am angry because I wanted this to be a special night. I wanted it to be about memories from years ago. I wanted to invite only people who use to come to my mother’s many, many years ago. I knew/know I have to include new relatives who are related by marriage. That was ok but why these two who never came to my mother’s and just came into the family about a month ago. Maybe they will learn more about our family by coming. I DON’T CARE. We are already about 29. That’s plenty. Now we will have three more. Three more who I didn’t want BUT my sister and her hubby insist they come. I wish I could cancel the supper but of course I won’t. I can’t! I don’t really want to.
My sister said that whenever the in-laws have company they invite her. SO WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME????????? They don’t invite me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t owe them anything. It’s not that I don’t like them but I wanted this night to be about memories!!!!! Also if anyone talks to these in laws they probably won’t be talking about the past!!!! I know it’s not serious but to me it is. It spoils the purpose of the evening. 
I am angry because I had no choice. Right now I "hate" my sister. I always hated my BIL.
Let me explain a little. 
My sister is ten years older than me. She acts like a two year old. She only breathes when her hubby says it’s ok. She always reminds me that she had to babysit for me, had to change my diapers etc. Isn’t it time to forget??????? She has never been a BIG sister. She is soo weak! When I use to make the seders my sister and brother would invite people to my house because they "owed" them favours!!!!!!!! PLEASE! That’s when hubby said no more. I feel that once again I am being taken advantage of. I told my sister we could go out the next night with them. It would be more personal. She put the BASTARD on the phone to plead her case. He told me he asked my nephew who is hosting the evening and he said ok. So why call me??????????????? This nephew might be wonderful but he is a bit "flighty."
So I am angry! I don’t know why but I can’t forget them forcing me to have people I don’t want. We were going to be enough!!!!!!! 32!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyhow I am going to take bath and try to relax!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is why I will drive to Florida alone. All alone so I can do exactly what I want. I can’t wait!!!!!!!!!