GRANDCHILDREN AND MORE

I thought I should address some of your notes of concern.
There are so many things I want to write.
I know candy is not healthy. I know candy is loaded with sugar and not the best thing for children. However we were going to be in the synagogue. It’s a place where the children have to be quiet. It’s a place where the children have nothing to do. It’s a place where the children don’t know what is going on as the service is in hebrew. My children went to Jewish private schools so they were taught about the holidays etc. (Don’t ask me why we take them there!) As it is her children were running around during the service and maybe I shouldn’t have given them the candy. I gave it to my grandson because he was sitting beside me. They look forward to it. If their parents don’t give them candy then what is wrong with me giving them some if they come to the synagogue? It’s only once a year. I don’t think it would have hurt them if it only once in awhile. I remember when I had foster children. I never gave them candy, white bread, flour etc. When they went to my mother’s house they went crazy! My mother explained to me that if candy was available at my house and a fuss wasn’t made they wouldn’t even care. My foster children were the first ones at the coffee table gobbling up candy. It’s like when you are on a diet and can’t eat crap. You are always missing it and tempted by dessert.
I think it was insensitive for my DIL to tell me she threw it out. It was like a slap in the face. My ex DIL had a lot more respect for me.
I am feeling terrible and will talk to my psychologist tomorrow morning. I will follow her suggestions. Since I am so upset with my son and his wife I am planning to leave for Florida the beginning of November. It’s  easier to be AWAY!!!!!!! I don’t have to get involved in their life. Actually I don’t get involved at all and most of the time I don’t offer any advice. I keep my distance which at times is probably too much.
When the children were here they touched my "rock" garden. It’s in a large different shaped glass jar/vase. I have put in all sorts of stones, rocks etc. I really loved it and it meant so much to me. Now I am upset because they touched it. Today I separated all the rocks/stones etc. I put them back in but it just isn’t the same. It’s like they spoiled my peace/garden. I am not sure what I’ll do. It just doesn’t feel the same anymore!
I have to decide if I will send the children stuff from Florida. I don’t want to so probably won’t.
I haven’t given them anything since before Florida last year.
I get so frustrated because of our TV and remotes. It takes me so long to figure out the channels etc. It seems as if I don’t have the energy or patience anymore.
I am so looking forward to my drive to Florida.
This morning I started to organize my books in alphabetical order by author. I just did the top row of books. I think I will do one row at at a time and maybe at the ned try to combine all the rows.
This morning I also drove by the house of the people who sold us this condo. I went to see if "our" curtains are hanging in the house and they sure were. I took pictures and will take them to add to my claim at small claims court. I am so proud of myself!!!!!!!! I am so anxious to see what happens.
Some of you suggested I go on medication. Maybe I’ll ask the psychologist tomorrow. My concern is I am on so many other medications. I hate to add another one.
I do take comforting baths most days and do exercise which is relaxing. I relax and have naps. I guess I am just so angry that my grandson has to live with a screaming bitch!!!!!!!!!!!! ( Now should I erase this so she won’t read it after I die?????????)
OK! So now maybe I’ll try to go to sleep again. 
I LOVE OD!!!!!!!!!!!!!