FRIENDS-read

GRATITUDE

I HAVE TWO FRIENDS WHO CALL ME NO MATTER WHAT.

I never had a lot of friends. When I was in public school I don’t remember having any school friends. I do remember two girls on the street. So three never got along! The first two that got together in the morning were friends for the day and the other was usually left out. I did have another friend and I remember we played cards alot. We moved away and that was the end.

When I moved I had a few friends….mostly kids on the street. I remember one friend. We spent a lot of time together. Then all of a sudden she told me that she didn’t only want to hang with me and that was it. In high school I had a friend but it didn’t last. When I think back I realize I wasn’t a friend. I never called to get together etc. It’s like now. I rarely call anyone!

I know a lot of women and we camp with them but I just have nothing in common with them.

I spent a lot of years with one friend but we are no longer friends.

I would say I have two very good friends now. One I have known all my life. The other for over thirty years. I do NOT need people too much. IF NOT FOR MY THIRTY YEAR OLD FRIEND WE WOULD SPEND A LOT OF TIME ALONE. I REALIZE IT IS MY FAULT. BUT WHAT CAN I DO?

WHEN I WAKE UP I NEVER THINK OF CALLING ANYONE. I ALSO NEVER THINK OF GOING OUT UNLESS I HAVE TO GO SOMEWHERE.

I AM SHY ABOUT MAKING FRIENDS. I AM DOING QUILTING WITH SOMEONE WHO LIVES JUST A  FEW MINUTES AWAY. WHY DON’T I ASK HER TO COME OVER AND WORK TOGETHER ON OUR QUILTS????

I GUESS IT JUST TAKES TOO MUCH EFFORT. I ALSO HAVE LITTLE PATIENCE AND LITTLE TOLERANCE.

SOMETIMES I AM HAPPY TO DO SOMETHING WITH A FRIEND BUT MORE OFTEN I LIKE DOING THINGS ALONE WITH MYSELF AT MY OWN PACE ETC ETC.