DEPRESSING – OK-edited


 

 

I don’t know why but I find the evenings lately are depressing. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because it’s dark out but why would that matter? Maybe it’s because it’s too quiet in here but I like quiet. It’s a mystery!
I called the gyno today. I spoke to whoever answered and she asked me a million questions. She told me to put on compresses. She said if it goes away in three days forget about it or not she would give me an appointment.
We had supper. I made hot dogs on the Foreman grill with sweet potato fries. The hot dogs were delicious but the fries cooled off in a minute.
I am trying to decide what to do. My nephew is having a BAR MITZVAH for his son at the beginning of December. I will be arriving in Florida about November 25. I would just have time to unpack and then I would have to fly back to Toronto for three nights. I told them I wouldn’t be coming BUT it’s my brother’s grandson so think I should attend. If someone passed away we would come so why shouldn’t we come for a celebration. I think I have made my decision. My husband won’t fly back as he says he is old and can’t stand the cold weather. I’ll have to come alone. So be it! I would travel light and probably stay with my cousin.

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Sometimes we just feel depressed for no apparent reason! I know I do.

I’ve been feeling a bit “off” myself for almost two weeks…wonder what’s up?

October 26, 2009

I think its our bodies trying to get ready for the time change *hugs* I think its great that you are flying back for the celebration 🙂

October 26, 2009

you are not the true only one feeling depress, its that time of year, COLD and DARK brings the feelings of the dark feelings! I hope you will have better days any ways! SMILE

October 26, 2009

One day I had a date for lunch with friends. Mae, a little old “blue hair” about 80 years old, came along with them—all in all, a pleasant bunch. When the menus were presented, we ordered salads, sandwiches, and soups, except for Mae who said, “Ice Cream, please. Two scoops, chocolate.” I wasn’t sure my ears heard right, and the others were aghast. “Along with heated apple pie,” Mae added, completely unabashed. We tried to act quite nonchalant, as if people did this all the time. But when our orders were brought out, I didn’t enjoy mine. I couldn’t take my eyes off Mae as her pie a-la-mode went down. The other ladies showed dismay. They ate their lunches silently and frowned. The next time I went out to eat, I called and invited Mae. I lunched on white meat tuna. She ordered a parfait. I smiled. She asked if she amused me. I answered, “Yes, you do, but also you confuse me. How come you order rich desserts, while I feel I must be sensible?” She laughed and said, with wanton mirth, “I’m tasting all that is possible. I try to eat the food I need, and do the things I should. (see next)

October 26, 2009

But life’s so short, my friend, I hate missing out on something good. This year I realized how old I was. (She grinned) I haven’t been this old before. So, before I die, I’ve got to try those things that for years I had ignored. I haven’t smelled all the flowers yet. There are too many books I haven’t read. There’s more fudge sundaes to wolf down and kites to be flown overhead. Thereare many malls I haven’t shopped. I’ve not laughed at all the jokes. I’ve missed a lot of Broadway hits and potato chips and cokes. I want to wade again in water and feel ocean spray on my face. I want to sit in a country church once more and thank God for His grace. I want peanut butter every day spread on my morning toast. I want un-timed long distance calls to the folks I love the most. I haven’t cried at all the movies yet, or walked in the morning rain. I need to feel wind in my hair. I want to fall in love again. So, if I choose to have dessert, instead of having dinner, then should I die before night fall, I’d say I died a winner, because I missed out on nothing. I filled my heart’s desire. I had that final chocolate

October 26, 2009

With that, I called the waitress over. “I’ve changed my mind,” I said. “I want what she is having, only add some more whipped cream!” At our ages, it’s okay to order dessert first!

October 26, 2009

yeah it is that time of the year!

October 26, 2009

RYN: It might have been easy to control one but not 3. Thing is, the last time I had a cat spayed or neutered, no instructions. Just keep them confined overnight and then let them outside again. So, I think maybe if they survived them, they can survive now. LOL.

October 27, 2009

it’s the darkness and the cold. i’m feeling sorta quiet and want to be by myself lately. it’s only gonna get worse with the time change. take care,