CRYING ON THE TREADMILL-read

I just did forty on the treadmill.
I started crying.
I am not sure why.
Is it because I feel like I am in the same rut? Do I want to do anything to change things at this stage of my life? He goes to the trailer without looking back. He doesn’t care if I go or not. I go because in the end it is not a bad thing. I just would like him to OFFER to stay home if I am not going. I would encourage him to go.
SHIT! My son just came home. I thought he was gone for the day. I wonder where he went. Oh? Maybe he took my grandson for his swimming lesson.
Anyhow back to crying. I think I am so FED UP with my hubby. It’s not the first time and probably won’t be the last time.
I am upset that he doesn’t care about this house. He will do nothing here. He changes every discussion to MONEY!!!!! Everything costs too much. I spend too much. He will renovate and do anything at the trailer or condo. What can I do? I will discuss it when he gets home tomorrow. Everything has to be done when he is ready?????????
He will renovate the bathroom in a few years. By the way I don’t need it or want it renovated. BUT HE WILL maybe just maybe do it in a few years. ARE YOU CRAZY? Who knows if you will be here in  a few years? You are 70!!!!!! Why don’t you do it now so you can enjoy it while you are still alive and kicking? I did tell him this.
I will insist in painting and a few repairs. I will hire someone to do it once my daughter goes back to school. He can stay at the trailer. He makes me so mad and angry and frustrated.
So I am going to take a wonderful bubble bath and then have lunch. Tonight I am going with a friend to see LIFE with others. I heard it was very good.