CALL ME A BITCH OR WORSE

My son called to tell me he is planning to marry the girl he has been living with. I could not say Congratulations or anything. WHY??????? I don’t know why he is getting married? Maybe it’s because he will be able to adopt or keep her kids if she dies. He asked me what I would be doing tomorrow night? I told him we usually play bridge on Tuesday night. I know I am not playing bridge. I just rather stay home. Why am I not even interested in spending time with my son and his children?
I am going out for supper tonight but I would much rather eat the chicken soup I made today. WHY????????? It’s still cooking. I will have to put it away when I get home. Meanwhile I will leave it simmering.
My hubby is  away for a few days. I don’t miss him at all. I LOVE being alone!!!!!!!!!!!! I should become a hermit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess I’ll have something to discuss with my psychologist.
I just realized I should have gone to Toronto with my hubby. He is spending a lot of time with my daughter. I’m missing out………………… I just saw her and will see her again in September.
I really don’t understand myself. Is it something from my past that made like this? I guess once I know I could change myself………………….do I want to? should I?
Other things – today I made a stew, chicken soup and roasted chicken. I would have preferred staying home and eating something I prepared. However my friend knew I was alone and asked me to go out. I asked her to come here instead. I know her husband would have loved it but she was determined to go out. OY!!!!!!!!!
I don’t like talking on the phone. Often I don’t even answer the phone.
So I better get ready. Have a good night. This bitch is going out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!