AT MY KITCHEN TABLE-ok

It is freezing downstairs so last night I decided to bring my computer up to the kitchen.

I am sitting here having coffee and thinking:

My sister is sitting in the living room. I am sure she would like to make conversation but that is not me so I FEEL GUILTY.

A friend called on the phone. I deleted the message and NOT planning to call back. WHY?????????

Last night I saw the two death announcements for my mother and brother on my fridge door. It  brought home to me just how tragic my life has been. I lost two members of my immediate family in the last month.

My sister talks on the phone and walks around and around. It makes me so NERVOUS. Thank goodness it’s the last day.

My niece is getting married March 20 so I am very happy. I will have to leave Florida about the fifteenth of March which is fine with me.

I need some alone time but don’t know when I’ll get it as my daughter is coming to Florida for about ten days or longer.

In the newspaper they talk about all types of medication which is NOT safe to take. What are we suppose to believe????????????????????????????

My daughter got a full time job. She starts January 11th. Does my hubby realize and appreciate that he no longer needs to support my mother and our daughter????? I must say he was happy to support my mother but at least now he has one less outlet for his precious money.

What am I going to do all day???? Will anyone come? Maybe I’ll go sit in the living room with my sister. I would like to talk to her but she is so hard for me to take. She doesn’t have an opinion of her own. She is afraid of her shadow. Sometimes I can be caring and understanding; other times it just makes me want to puke. I understand why she is like she is but it still bothers me to no end. She just NEVER grew up. She has no confidence and treats herself like shit. She would get up and give her chair to anyone. She would give up her food to anyone and everyone. WHY???? Because my mother and her hubby are very strong and oppionated people and shot her down at every chance. My mother taught her to SERVE others at her own expense and she learned the lesson well. Her hubby expects her to do exactly what HE tells her and if she doesn’t WATCH OUT!!!!! He might not be physically abusive but DEFINITELY verbally. She is planning to go home Sunday. If she had an ounce of brains she would stay here longer.

So I’m off to sit in the living room…………………..can you teach me the gift of gab?????????????????????