ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT
I couldn’t stay asleep. This is the second time I am up. I will try to sleep again if not I’ll get started on my day. I will be busy. I am having company for supper so will start making supper in the morning. I am using up a lot of leftovers so that will make it easy.
This afternoon I have an appointment with my neurologist.
I have trouble making decisions. Maybe that’s why I can’t sleep. I think that’s why I like travelling alone. I just get up and do what I want without considering anyone or anything else.
I have been trying to decide what I want for my 70th birthday. At first I told hubby I want to go on a major trip. Over the winter I changed my mind. So much sickness and death! I decided I would be happy just to be well and I didn’t want to go anywhere. Instead I decided on anew computer and IPAD. HOWEVER since this computer is working fine and I hardly ever use my IPAD I’ve been thinking if I can just ask hubby for some cash to pay down my debts. I don’t know what his reaction will be so I am not sure I want to go that route.
Last night an old neighbour called to ask if I wanted to go over to see her daughter and new baby. I said ok and told her to call and let me know when would be a good time. The more I thought about it the more I decided I didn’t really want to get dressed and go out at night. So instead of calling and being honest I just didn’t answer the phone!!!!!!!!!!!! I use to really like her daughter but I haven’t seen her for a few years and with me absence does not make my heart grow fonder. My neighbour was always either working or just too busy to get together so we never did. I more or less wrote her out of my book of friends. I feel a little guilty and mean but so be it. If she calls today I won’t answer the phone or I will just tell her I fell asleep after supper and by the time I woke up it was too late. Her daughter was just in for the holidays. She will be going home to the US on Wednesday.
Yesterday was a quiet day. Hubby and I stayed home. I did some washing. I hung around. I tried to organize more of my craft room. I would love to have hubby’s room. It is so much bigger than mine. I want to make labels for all my containers so it will be easier to know what I have.
So time to try to sleep again. I finished THE HUNGER GAMES. I loved it. I am now on the second book.
decisions are hard when one cannot define exactly what one wants – either as gifts or from friendships. Simplify the options and look at what you have first. Gifts – the best gift one can give is time. Maybe your birthday gift could be something you and hubby can do together. Best wishes, A
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i’m looking forward to my 65th birthday! might give myself a trip to florida for that birthday. sometimes, i have difficulty making decisions. like right now, i’m trying to decide what medicare supplement i want to go with. hope the trip to the doctor has good results. prayers you are able to sleep soon. take car,e
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not being able to make a decision comes from the fear of making the wrong one, so instead we do nothing. Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith and hope for the best.
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CaDonna, Zach and I all have birthday’s in May. Zach will be 10 so his is the important birthday here. I do not need to celebrate mine anymore,hehe. Love,
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the best birthday gift is often a breakfast tray in bed, and flowers. As you already have so much maybe you could suggest that. As for sleeping, try a warm drink at bedtime…just not coffee. hugs p
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Sleepless nights are awful. I have my fair share of them. I think I’m just destined to be awake at night. I’ve never been a good night sleeper…started when I was about 9 or 10.
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I love your new background 🙂 You’re the third person I’ve read who said they couldn’t sleep. I wonder if it’s the the weather patterns affecting so many. I had an episode of sleep walking last night, and I haven’t had that happen to me in YEARS. When my aunt was about your age, she had a rapid decline in some of her mental thoughts and processes. We were all relieved, but none more than her!, when it was finally discovered she had a serious vitamin B deficiency. Such a ‘simple’ fix…a weekly vitamin B shot. I hope you get to feeling more enervated and motivated to become involved with your friends again.
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