ALWAYS HEARTBREAK

My middle son has always caused me emotional pain. From when he was a young boy there was always something. For example when he was young he started to have seizures. Of course he didn’t do it on purpose. So for a few years he was on medication and we had to take him to the hospital for tests and checkups. For one test we had to keep him up all night. When he was young it was harder. As he got older his siblings could stay up with him and by the end he stayed up alone. He finished with that when he became a teenager.
Next he had some type of growth on his head. It had to be removed. I took him to the hospital and sat beside him as they removed it. In the end no big deal.
Next he got married. He married out of the religion. Hubby had a harder time to accept it. I realized I wasn’t going to become enemies with my son and his girlfriend so I didn’t say anything. They got married. There were some good times but I think most of the time it wasn’t. I never knew anything. Finally they got divorced. I just had such a difficult time watching my grandson being torn in two going from on house to the other. I don’t think I will ever get over it.
My son bought a senior home for his wife and her mother. My hubby told him it was a bad idea but he went ahead anyways! It was nothing but trouble and we lost a lot of money. Of course there was plenty of aggravation also and it still hasn’t stopped.
Last night this son told me that he was having trouble with his ex. What else????? They have a dog. When they got divorced they he left the dog with her and he agreed to share the expenses half and half. Well she always does the best for the dog and my son just can’t afford to pay half. She doesn’t let him help make decisions about what she does with this dog. At the last vet visit the bill ended up around 800!!!! My poor son!!! He was so upset. He didn’t want to pay his share so asked me what to do. I had no good answer. I felt like crying and screaming in frustration. I just couldn’t stand to see my son so upset – so caught between a rock and a hard place! I wonder if hubby and I should offer to pay his share. I will discuss it with my hubby tomorrow.
Now he is married to a new wife. She is wonderful in many ways but he told me she is driving him crazy!!! OY!!!! Tomorrow they are leaving for a cruise. I hope they have a good rest. They both need it!
This son is trying to change jobs. His boss apparently is a bitch. It seems like he has no luck-maybe  he just can’t make the right decision for himself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
While they are on a cruise two of my grandchildren are going to Ireland to visit family.  I bought them some toys to play with on the plane.
My other grandson will be staying with his mother. Since she works he will be staying with his cousins and……………..I hope to take him once or twice this week. I must write his mother and see if it will be ok. My grandson never says a word so I just don’t know how he feels about all that is going on in his life.
All I know is that my heart breaks for my son and his son. He deserves better but of course he made his choices and now has to live with them. I brought him up to be soft and not very ambitious.
Anyhow I’ll go back to sleep and hopefully forget everything for awhile.