A DILEMMA

Once again I am up early. I woke up around five. I worked on my needlepoint and then tried to go back into bed. No chance of falling asleep. I am so upset and not sure what I should do.
Apparently my BIL is depressed. Who wouldn’t be in his position? He is sleeping a lot etc. He is waiting to be moved into a rehab. I wonder if he’ll make it. He was always so strong emotionally certainly not physically. I guess his condition has just beat him down. 
One of our friends back home is dying from cancer. I wrote her an email yesterday and she never answered. This is not like her as she always has her Blackberry on and she uses it constantly. Her hearing is not great so this is her way of staying in touch. Hubby spoke to her hubby at the beginning of the week and he said she was getting worse. Maybe I’ll call the hospital to see if she’s there???????
I would love to fly home for about a week. I would stay in Montreal a few days. I would get to see my friend and my grandchildren. This is the first year I can honestly say that I miss them. I don’t think hubby would want to go but maybe once he knows I am going he would change his mind. I don’t mind going alone. After Montreal I would like to go to Toronto. I would get my son to drive me there and spend a few days with my SIL.
I spoke to my daughter yesterday and asked her to go visit my SIL. She said she would on Friday because she finishes work early. She told me to "relax" because I shouldn’t be too stressed out. In a way she is right. I am not getting any younger and maybe I expect too much of myself.
So this morning I will speak to my hubby and see what he thinks.
So off to have breakfast and then I have messages to do. In the afternoon I am playing Mah Jongg so I have a full day.

GRATITUDES::

Being in Florida away from the winter
Finding some new friends who share my interest in hobbies
The indoor swimming pool
food to eat
a roof over my head
hubby who cares
clothes to wear
What are you grateful for??????????