[ i feel so alive in this empty night ]

my fingertips struggle to find
the right keys, but all are out of reach.
but so is everything else, so why am I suddenly surprised,
as if something will change in an instant?
everything is always instant,
except the things you need to be instantaneous.
this needs to be quick, flicker in and out….
the shutters open to another dead night.
but yet i feel so alive in this empty night
and i miss you–though my eyelids are heavy,
my heart is heavy—-so full of you.
so full of the last ten months of heart felt smiles,
and full force kisses raw with emotion.
but somewhere, somehow
in my veins lurks the enemy
that i’ve sought after for what seems like a century,
but truthfully, his time is fugacious.
sharp and deep and to the point.
spreading himself thin—-he’s lost within.
can you reach him?
maybe.
i know i couldn’t.
even if i tried with all of my might…..
a part of me he has become.
i know no deception lies in your eyes,
no fallacious smiles, your heart is real
and this is reality.
in fact, i am enamored by your beauty.
flash me your sublime smile, in all its glory.
im in love with you,
and all you have to offer.
because of you my nights are illustrious,
overflowing with scintillating smiles
that are born on my face, and die in an instant.
have i told you i love you today?
and have i said all i needed to say?
i know i can be so untoward sometimes, but dont

give

up

on

me.

i want your love to flow over my body
how the moon beams
undulate over the ripples
of the far away seas.
i want your love to awaken me,
fill me up,
pull me down…
take me under, over and around.
this is all too much for me
right now….rememeber
i love you…
always.

To those of you who have already read this in my other diary: I’m sorry for repeating myself!!! 🙂

[ 9.52 PM ]