Thinking

…it will get me in trouble every time.

I made it a good day yesterday. At the end of the day, I made the chill of evening bearable by turning on a space heater for the first time this fall. Frankly, I cannot curl up with a book in comfort when the room is 50 degrees.

Then G came home with the news that the firings have begun again. One problem is that since numbers are down on one side, the hiring protocols for next year do not include a clerk for that side. If G’s clerk is supposed to cover both brands, I know she will revolt. G does everything in his power to keep that lady happy.

The other problem is, as G saw it last night, since the numbers are down for that side, they may only need one manager. The numbers are down because the Dragon Lady didn’t hire a replacement clerk so she could save money. There is no one in the office to input the numbers, so there are no numbers.

I slept poorly knowing the Dragon Lady has been trying to off G for two years to replace him with her lover. She has half achieved this. Her lover now has G’s job title.

So I slept poorly. Four and a half hours of sleep do not constitute a good nights sleep. My brain just kept thinking. Most of the time I can banish this terrible ogre, thinking, but last night it was thinking run riot. I was three quarters asleep with a brain that kept running on and on. Every security issue I had ever known came out of the rock garden to pelt me with tufts. Yes, I turned the problem and my thinking over repeatedly…et al. I shudda just got up and turned it over and begun praying for the Dragon Lady. That would have put me to sleep in a hurry.

G just called. His job and two other manager positions are listed for 2004. Progress. Now if I can stop thinking, that will be real progress.