Stress and Anxiety THROUGH the ROOF!

Goodness I swear sometimes the bad times never seem to end… But we are expected to just stay positive and know that it gets better… Or trust that GOD works all things out for their good….. Well what if you’re a glass half full person, like me??🤔 What if you have been burned SO many times by people you loved and people who were close to you… That you literally have decided to not trust another soul??😥

Here I am… Not trusting a thing… and stressed beyond measure. Finances are not where they should be… I am struggling. I am trying not to stress money because apparently the more you stress it, the less you’ll have…. But with two kids who always seem like they need something AND bills…. Its easy to get lost in the fact that…. I need more income coming in. So of course I google what can be done online to earn money. There are surveys, which pay nothing. Blogging, which takes FOREVER to start up and be profitable. I can be a you-tuber? 😂 Y’all I am so boring…. No one would ever want to watch that. Or there’s selling stuff on Etsy that you make… I mean I am pretty darn crafty… Its just finding the time. I work full time. My son plays football, and they practice 4 nights a week from 6:30-8:30, and we live 30 minutes from the high school they practice at…. I literally get off work at 5, get my kids, go to practice, sit there for 2 hours then come home and its showers and bed…. and we do it all over again the next day. On our off day with football, I have to rush home so that the kids are home in time for their dad to pick them up to do dinner with them…

I AM TIRED. mentally. emotionally. Why cant I just be one of those millionaires who doesn’t have to work? and doesn’t stress finances…. Why is it always the people who don’t seem to care about anyone else who don’t seem to struggle with money? Literally the harder I work and the more compassion I have for other people the less I seem to have. I am literally the person who will give her last few dollars to a homeless person and do without….

I am blessed beyond measure with my health and my kiddos/their health…. I just want to be secure again. Secure financially. Secure in my relationship. Secure in myself. Secure enough to trust….