2.15.22

GOODNESS IT HAS BEEN QUITE SOMETIME SINCE IVE WRITTEN. I AM SETTLING IN JUST FINE IN MY NEW JOB, YALL I COULDNT LOVE IT MORE. IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE WORK TO ME. I AM SO PASSIONATE ABOUT MY JOB AND JUST FEEL THIS FIRE LIKE I AM DESTINED TO DO SO MUCH MORE HERE. THESE PEOPLE HAVE ALL BECOME MORE LIKE FAMILY THAN JUST COWORKERS TO ME. IT HAS BEEN QUITE AN ADJUSTMENT WORKING NIGHTS LOL I FEEL LIKE I LITERALLY JUST WORK AND SLEEP… WE ARE SHORT STAFFED SO I DO TRY TO SIGN UP FOR AS MUCH OVERTIME AS POSSIBLE TO HELP OUT, BUT AGAIN… I CANT SAY ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE MY JOB. I TOOK THE KIDDOS ON OUR VERY FIRST WEEKEND TRIP ALONE , JUST THE THREE OF US, EVER THIS LAST WEEKEND. WE WENT TO THE BEACH… ITS STILL WAY TOO COLD FOR THE BEACH, BUT THEY HAD A HEATED POOL AND A HOT TUB SO THE KIDS WERE MORE THAN HAPPY WITH THAT. I HAVENT DATED MUCH. LITERALLY BEEN ON ONE DATE SINCE MY SPLIT IN OCTOBER AND REALIZED DATING IN THIS DAY AND AGE JUST ISNT FOR ME. I AM AN OLD SOUL, THE KIND THAT NEEDS AN EMOTIONAL CONNECTION BEFORE ANYTHING PHYSICAL CAN OCCUR AND EVERYONE I HAVE MET IS ALL ABOUT THIS HOOKUP CRAP… I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO TELL YALL HOW QUICK I BLOCK MEN BASED OFF STUPID COMMENTS THEYVE MADE TO ME ALONE LOL…. IM JUST NOT ABOUT IT. I WONT WASTE MY TIME. IF YOU ARENT MARRIAGE MINDED, AND THAT CONNECTION ISNT THERE, I WONT EVEN ENTERTAIN TALKING TO YOU, MUCH LESS ENTERTAIN GOING TO DINNER WITH YOU… I CAN TAKE MYSELF TO DINNER LOL….. ANYWAYS OTHER THAN THAT… IM STILL AT MY MOTHERS HOUSE. I HAVENT FOUND A GOOD PLACE FOR ME AND THE KIDS YET… ON THE FENCE ABOUT IF I WANT TO RENT OR SAVE AND BUILD MY BLACK BARNDOMINIUM ON SOME LAND… VERY CONFLICTED. I JUST PRAY ABOUT ALL OF IT AND GIVE IT TO GOD. HE WILL LEAD ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. I HOPE YOU ALL ARE WELL. 🙂