OMG Job Interview. *edit*

…In 12 hours and 45 mins. Scared doesn’t explain how I feel! I’m not good at bigging myself up, and I’m very shy around people I don’t know. I’m just gonna have to put on a front and act like I’m the best person in the world for the job, even if I amn’t lol. Hope I get it. Cross all body parts for me! :]

What else is there to talk about? Hmmm well last week I was meant to be goin on a date, but I wasn’t up to it at all so I cancelled. Then on Saturday another guy was askin me out lol. He’s nice, his name is Alex. I told him we’d have to wait and see, get to know each other better and stuff so we shall see after that. Soooo sceptical after Wardy tbh. Fucking dickhead he turned out to be. Found out stuff recently that has made me hate him even more. Just the thought of him makes me feel sick to my stomach. Yuck.

I’m soooo sick of not having a job. It’s weird, I actually sleep like alllll the time. I’m like nocturnal these days, up all night and sleep all day. Today I woke up at near enough 1pm, and I still get tired :S I mean what’s that about!? It’s actually starting to get to me. I need some sort of routine, a reason to get up in the morning. That’s why I really need this job.

I’m sure my mum thinks I’m depressed. On Friday she came home from work and said I looked down. Then I went to the shop to get some drink, coz I just fancied having one, and when I came home she was like "why do u wanna drink on ur own? are u ok?" I just told her I was only gonna have a couple and that I was fine. But she kept checking up on me all night asking if I was ok. Then on Saturday she was asking if I was going out and stuff but I had no plans so she was like suggesting all these things I should do and stuff. Then I eventually made plans to go to Stereo so I think she was glad about that lol. Hope she doesn’t still think it.

Alex wants to do something soon :] Hope this one doesn’t turn out to be a complete weirdo like! Just my luck eh lol.

Ah well I literally have run out of things to say so I’m gonna shoot to bed. Wish me luck for tomoro 🙁

xx

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I just read my last entry and realised i have already spoke about Alex haha ah well. And had mentioned going out for a meal with Peter. That’s the one I cancelled lol.

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