New year.
Heylo.
Well we are in 2008! Can’t quite believe how fast 2007 went, seems like a blur. Was a pretty good year though huh? 🙂 Met sooooooo many people. I think I changed a lot in the past year. When I look back to this time last year.. or even like 7/8 months ago I was a totally different person, and not in a good way. I mean I wasn’t a horrible person but I dunno, just not very open minded… slightly stuck up? If it wasn’t for all the people I met I would probably still be that person and I would probably be alone, and for that I am very thankful 🙂 Me and Paul were talking the other day and we both realised we didn’t like each other when we first met haha. Oh how tables can turn!
Anyway Christmas was good! My mum woke us up at the back of 7! Bloody woman. So we got up opened presents and I went back to bed haha. We had dinner at my aunties this year so we had nothing to do at ours, was great. After dinner my cousin took me down to Paul’s where I got my presents from him 🙂 Got a ring and a necklace. I knew I was getting that but they aren’t the ones I thought I was getting. I had a very nice night : ) I couldn’t be bothered with New Years this year tbh! I guess I just used to use it as an excuse to get drunk and party, but I do that EVERY weekend anyway so it was nothing new. Plus the person I wanted to spend it with was fooking WORKING! (I swear he better get a proper job soon.) Anyway I had been out the Friday, Saturday and Sunday before New Year so I was knackered so just went to sleep lol. It’s a sad tale but I don’t really care! Then on New Years day I went down to Paul’s : )
I finished up work on the 21st and was off for near enough 2 weeks and I swear I think I only spent about 4 of the nights without Paul. It’s quite shocking haha. What’s even more shocking is that we actually did fuck all. The only productive things we did were shopping before Christmas, after that we just sat about doing absolutely nothing. That’s the way I like it though 🙂 I think if you can sit and do nothing with someone and not feel uncomfortable or awkward or feel like you have to think of something to say then you’re all good! I tell you it’ll be weird now I’m back to work, today is the first day I’m not gonna see him in actual ages. It was werid going to bed alone lastnight, I hardly slept at all. I don’t like it!
It was also Paul’s birthday on the 16th, we all went to a club in Edinburgh called The Hive (never go it’s actual gash!!). He was sooooo drunk it was unreal. And I can’t stand to be around him when he’s drunk. He also asked someone for an E on the way which I was not happy about coz I’d already told him I wasn’t comfortable with him taking one, so I’m on the phone to Elaine crying my eyes out trying not to let anyone see! Anyway we got there and Kirsty sang Paramore to me and I felt a bit better 🙂 I ignored Paul for ages, not that he noticed coz he was absolutely steaming. Then we eventually spoke and I confronted him about asking for drugs and he was like "I didnt ask her" and I was like "I fucking heard u dont talk rubbish" and he said "well I didnt ask since we got here" and I said "thats not the point u still asked her", he said "i didnt take it" and I said "i know because she said she wasnt giving you any but if she had would you have taken it?" and he said "….yes" so I walked away at that point. He tried to stop me but I pushed him away. I was NOT happy. But then he made it all better even though he didn’t realise there was anything wrong haha. We were standing at the bar and he said "Genna, look at me" so I looked at him and he pointed to his eye, I looked away and he told me to look at him again so I turned back and he pointed to his heart, then to me and said "I love you" and I said "what coz ur drunk?" and he said "no… well yes. I love you but I’m saying it when I’m drunk in case you don’t say it back coz then I won’t remember." So by saying that he melted my heart again and I couldn’t be angry at him anymore lol. I thought he wouldn’t keep it up or even remember that he said it but he did remember and he has kept it up so yay 🙂
God I even make myself sick with my happiness right now lol. I think this has been long enough so I’m gonna go now!
Byee xx