Rambling mostly.

Wow, i was realy flattered by the wonderful replies i got to my last entry. Things have been gettin on top of me lately, Im just glad theres people who are willing to help me and to listen.
It seems to be more then the actualy problems i have effecting me, and just anxiety gettin at me.

I wrote that entry to send as a note to my boyfriend. i find it very hard to say things out loud, and find it much easier to send a letter then to say things to peoples faces.
He’s the sort of person who beleives everyone should just ‘get on with it’, and i think i just needed to say, ‘i cant just get on with it, i have this thing inside that crushes me and sometimes i just cant face doing things right away.’ sometimes i need people to know i feel like fractured glass.
I think i also need to stop feeling like i have to get everythign perfect and right first time round.

I guess im a little stressed what with lots of changes coming up. It typical, but it cant be helped. My life at the minute means a lot of moving around, and as soon as i get settled in one place its time to move on to the next. Its not so bad, i actually like it. But around moving time, theres a lot of stress. Especially seeing as my boyfriend hasnt got a job where we’r moving yet, so he’s decided he needs to stick around at the job and house we have now until he has one. Which means i have to go on my own for a while.
It wont be more then four weeks. But i feel a little overwhelmed. Which is strange. This is the first time i havent been alone in this. Maybe thats why, i really am throwing everything i have into it, im used to being alone and relying on myself, i dont like to feel needy or like im weighing down on anyone. Im trying not to complain, but i guess im dissapointed about how things have to work out for the next few weeks.

One of my best friends was injured at reading festival. It annoyed me so much, because its typical that the people there having fun get their time ruined by some twat who does a stupid thing, and someone else who’s innocent pays for it. It really got to me, Im very angry about it. I heard other people who went telling about how they ran round swearing at people and pushing tents and stuff over. It just bugs me cos people have no respect, and being a bit excited about having a great weekend, or being ‘off your face’ is absolutely no reason to somehow loose all respect for the people around you. Especially if it means that those people are in danger because of your stupid, immature, pathetic attitude and non caring actions.
Seriously, i get called a hippy, but at least i care and have respect for people around me.
Gah. I dont mean to rant.
This was a bit if a rambling entry.
Sorry.