Week of Anxiety

This will be a good week to wrap up. We put in that bid Monday, Tuesday we signed paperwork… and its just been waitng. HUD requested some changes to the pre-qualification letter so they have yet to sign the contract and initiate the closing process.

To help with some of the anxiety, Twin and I have been shopping around for kitchen materials and paint colors. Our colors are largely based on Feng Shui, in which 1984 is the year of the Rat and the Wood element. The corresponding locations of living/work space is South, Southeast, and East. The colors are Green and Brown, with Water colors Blue and Black being preferred as well. BTW… I think wood ties in well with being Western Astrological Air signs. Going by some rules of Feng Shui allows us to experiment and narrow down the possibilities some.

Still the anxiety runs strong despite trying to dissipate some of that feeling, so tonight we’re going to Shultzy’s.

Twin is working tomorrow, so I might get up and cover some pretty good miles in the boat. It would seem somewhat attractive to try invite someone else, but I can go a lot further if I am on my own. I will have to pack a bag because its supposed to be hot, and if I paddle from the Marina to Yarrow Bay… I’ll need energy refueling, lots of water, and suntan lotion. I could opt to go North so I don’t have to be close to the freeway. I’m a little cautious about being in the middle of the lake because a drunk motor-boat might not see me in time to avoid me since I’m no more than a few feet above the surface. I do have a bright yellow boat, but that’s only mere inches above the suface and easily hidden behind waves.

I looked back at a few of my entries, and I think I will definitely go the route of modifying them to reflect the change in perspective or delete them entirely. I can tell there are times I write to fill time, and other times where I write to vent something. I did that with my poems/rhymes back in the day when transferring them from one hand-written journal to another and it worked well.