Pause for Revelations 05.02.12
I had a revelations of sorts today in regards to the work I’m currently doing and friends.
Yes, I started here to help with an audit and I think I definitely helped there. Write offs are being done on a monthly basis, and I think adjustments are too. Scanning is regular and up to date as often as New Accounts can get that to me. I’ve done a couple of projects to help out…
Now, I’m just doing stuff that nobody else wants to keep up on. This bunch is a chatty bunch, and likes to do potluck birthdays and all of that. That’s super cool and it’s nice that people who have been here full time for a long term get that. It’s also nice that they can entertain clinicians for 15, 20 minutes once or twice a day. It’s nice that they can stop and interrupt each other and chat time away. However, they’re doing that because they don’t want to be making insurance verification calls, completing their own scanning, and processing denials. They shy away from the dull, monotonous work that’s a part of every job.
I’m a human bookmark. If they can keep me here all these remedial tasks get completed with little whining or rather none at all. I just say “happy to have the work.” That’s wearing on me though obviously. I’m starting to feel meek, meager, and alienated. I’m longing for autonomy which I had at some other places. I don’t want the work no one wants to do, I want the work that they need a specialist to complete.
I am definitely going home to work on my resume tonight.
FYI – I’m starting a campaign against those friends of mine that I read but don’t leave mutual notes, again. I figured before I was punishing the whole which is against my philosophy of sorting out offenders. Now I’m true to my philosophy. It sucks that I have to be mean, I can’t be more tolerant.
I am still noting some friends though and you really know who you are, so no worries I’ll be around. If I go through another bout of unemployment maybe there will be enough reward to keep in touch with those of you who reciprocate efforts to be friends.
🙂 you’re silly with keeping score with notes. But hey, everyone operates differently. I am so much more a one-on-one or small group person. No potluck birthdays for me.
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I think we each know when it is time to move on from our current situation. I am sure you’ll find something a little more fitting for your talents. As for noting i do my best to try and keep up that’s why i keep my circle small. I just don’t have the time, and some days, I am just wiped out between running the business and taking on the new profession. Good luck with your journey friend.
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ryn: The dog is a Puggle (Pug and Beagle mix). Weird (but kinda cute) looking dog, that’s for sure! I don’t come on here nearly as often as I used to, so I’m sorry for my lack of notes. When I do get on here I do try and keep up, so I’m sorry if I’ve been slacking. I hope you are able to find a different job with more variety. I’m sure you get bored with what you are doing now!
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I feel you on the autonomy thing. I like to enjoy basic conversation as much as the other guy, but Id much prefer to be in a hole in my office doing my job. RYN: and I HATE having employees. I HATE supervising. Though I suspect I will be doing just that as a librarian. Also, Jock said he didnt respond, but then he went onto my facebook, wrote hey babe luv you and then hacked mine and replied
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on my behalf while I was sitting there doing homework. I guess its his passive-agressive response. We shall see her on Saturday.
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RYN: I wondered the same thing. He’s not “dumb” but he is a little “off” but yeah, super super nice and sweet and good. As in a really good, kind, nice person.
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ryn: thank you for your notes, you always have something insightful to add. 🙂 i’ll have to check out that “Avoidant Attachment.” I really do think i have this fear of being open and honest. i always feel like i’m hiding something…my spending, my emotions, my hopes and dreams, my desires. i am afraid of being hurt, for sure. i know the wedding has a bit to do with it, so things will calm down, but i’m staying on the BC pills until everything else settles down. a kid right now would just be bad timing. i want to get some things in life settled before moving on to that phase.
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