28/11/2008

Oh man I feel tired today. Not so much tired in the ‘I need some sleep’ sense, but more in a ‘let this day be over, I cant handle anymore’ sense. I had the funeral today for a friends father who died of a heart attack at 64. Not young, but certainly not old either. It was as good as a funeral can be, and I saw a few people I dont see too often anymore, but it was draining emotionally. Admittedly I didnt know the deceased very well at all, I was there more or less as a support and to make an appearance.

When I got home, River was sleeping and seemed content, which was a relief, but it didnt last long unfortunately 🙁 She soon woke up and was crying alot, and I was just looking at her and thinking PLEASE stop, I really cant handle this right now. I force fed her the dummy a few times, sometimes she took it, others she didnt. She was just really fussy today, and apparently had been most of the day. We really need a day out, Im hoping that tomorrow will be good weather, River always seems better when we go out, perhaps because of the new things to see and distract her! Im also stopping myself from using the computer for the rest of this weekend too, besides writing my entries, I realise I need to spend more time in the outdoors, not the computer. If I hadn’t commited to writing every day in here, I wouldnt be getting on here for that either, but nonetheless, any reduction in computer time is good!