19/11/08

Today is 2 weeks since River was born. Its funny to think how life has changed in those last few weeks. Everyone tells you when they know you are going to have a baby that your life will change, they all have opinions on what you will ned to do, but there is absolutely no way you can fathom the idea of what it will be like. It is a true rollercoaster ride. Full of high highs and low lows. There is some flat ground there, but its mostly ups and downs. The downs bring you to a point of exhaustion and frustration and hopelessness, like you cant do anymore. The highs make you smile ear to ear, just knowing that the baby you hold in your arms is in fact a part of you, is born in essence of you. When you lock eyes, you know that there is now a greater reason for you to be the person you are meant to be, to handle what you need to handle, and do whatever you can to be there for those you care about. The day River was born, I not only got a daughter, I got a family. WE became a family. That is something indescribeable.

As the wave of the ocean crashes,

it flows as one,

as one body,

as one River

the essence of life

the flow of energy