unexpected news…

Found out today that Patrick (one of my exes) impregnated his girlfriend. He and I last slept together July 4th weekend, He started dating her in August, and apparently impregnated her in September. Craziness! Not sure how people typically react to this sort of thing- or how people expect me to react. All I can say is it wasn’t one of those “punch to the gut” feelings at all. Maybe cause I’m over him?  All I could think when Sarah told me this was “how is HE going to help raise a child”. Back in the day, he didn’t even know if he WANTED kids. Plus he’s been through a lot, still has a lot of growing up to do, and is definitely not in a fincancial situation to support a child! He lives at home right now! Wow…And his gf has a son already with a different guy. This is just too Jerry Springer for me! lol…it was just weird to hear and not something I expected.

I am progressively doing better and better about getting over John. I finally brought myself to delete all of his texts. And this morning I saw his truck again on the way to work (in front of the car in front of me). I think it was him at least. Point is- my heart didn’t drop and I didn’t feel like I was going to vomit. Baby steps, right? I think this “Secret” stuff is paying off! Lol…attitude is everything right? I just keep telling myself that I deserved better, that I want better- and that he served his purpose in my life. When I’m drunk it’s still hard- but like I said, baby steps!
 
I met a cute guy out last Friday. Turns out he’s friends with my friend’s husband and also works for a company that interfaces with my company. Small world! He asked me last night if he could take me out on Saturday night- I already have plans, so we’re going out on Sunday. We’ll see what happens! It will either go very well and take my mind off of John- or it could make me feel worse and miss him. I’m praying (and thinking positive thoughts) that it’s the former!