tryin to move on…

Thank you everyone for the sweet notes in regards to Joe. I have to say- it’s not easy, and there are times that I struggle. But on the other hand, it’s not as hard as I thought it would be. I haven’t even cried (but maybe ask me again after some drinks…lol) and I think I’ll be fine. I think the thing is that deep down I probably expected it. If there is one thing that I have learned- it’s that people don’t change. Of course there is the exception under extenuating circumstances or rare cases, but for the most part- people just don’t change. So I think that there was a part of me that knew that all along. That he wasn’t going to change and that second of all, he wasn’t someone that I would inevitably end up with. It doesn’t make it easy that he was the FIRST guy in SOOO long that had it all- as far as – the stuff “on paper” (a good job, good family, ambition, responsibility, etc.) as well I was soo attracted to him and the passion was there. And that is sooo hard to find- especially in my case it seems. So letting go of that person that seemed to “have it all” is a hard thing to do. But I keep reminding myself that he was emotionally unavailable, undependable, and flighty. And that is not what I want in the end. At least that’s what I have to keep reminding myself!!! But I will be okay.

As far as things with David (a guy I met 2 weeks ago) I’m not sure how they’re going to pan out. He is a fun guy and easy to talk to- and I’m just going to have fun. I get frustrated when things happen though  . like when he called me Wed night and said  “do you wanna do something this week?” and I’m like “sure” and then he just says “ok cool” and I’m like “well- this week is a pretty relative term” (thinking – it’s wed dude- so it’s time to make plans if you wanna see me!) and he’s like “I’ll call u tomorrow”… and then thurs rolls around and we STILL don’t have plans. ((smacking myself in the head))…whatev!!!! So at this point I’m like- whatever dude…if you want to hang out, cool. If you don’t- cool. I don’t care. I am done putting any effort out there… I GIVE cupid…you win!
hmm…maybe I need to call Patrick. he’s always a good distraction! ya know…one of those guys that meets the phrase of "the best way to get over a guy is to get under a new one.."… lol….hmmmm…
On another note, my little girls (the two oldest ones I used to babysit) are coming over tonight to see my place and go eat sushi. Should be fun!