it’s only been a week?

Things are okay – every day I am getting better, but this break up has been a lot harder on me than I thought. I know I shouldn’t but I keep thinking about things- about how it ended, what went wrong, etc. I don’t even get it in my own head. Why did this guy mean so much to me? I had even made a pros and cons list and the flags are glaringly red! I mean- God pretty much did everything but strike me with lighting! But yet I still hurt. And I still miss him. And I know that “you have to let go of the past to move forward” and that “everything happens for a reason” and that “I dodged a bullet” and that “I did nothing wrong”. But despite all of that I still feel like crap. Even I don’t understand it. And yea- on the day to day basis I am getting better and I don’t think about it/am distracted. But nights like last night after happy hour with work people I think of him, I miss him, I want to talk to him. This.is.hard.
 
here was my list:
Pros:
Affectionate
Proud to Introduce me to friends and family
Cute, definite attraction
Loves football, played football
Calls every day
Nice place, keeps it neat
Like his friends
Takes constructive criticism well (on little things) and tries to change
Friends like him
Goes to church
 
Cons
Cannot communicate well
Disappeared in the beginning before telling me about daughter
Does not take me on dates
Didn’t do anything for my birthday
Bought me DVDs for Christmas
Does not open up easily
Is not passionate about anything
Not sure of job/ambition
Daughter- situation and fact that he doesn’t even talk about her
Smokes weed all the time
Family is weird
Does not work out- even though he had said he did