Going crazy..

Okay, I am NOT testing tomorrow because it is starting to drive me crazy!!  I just want to know already, one way or the other!  Of course I was exhausted last night and was able to fall asleep right away and I don’t remember dreaming = so I’m starting to psych myself out.  I had more brown spotting yesterday too.  Maybe it just didn’t stick.
 
My mind is starting to play tricks on me now, so I am taking a break tomorrow from testing.  This is the test I took this morning:

I’m crazy because even though nothing is there, I feel like I see something anyways, lol.  Like the tiniest, faintest line I’ve ever seen.  No, not even a line.  More like a bit of blue tinge on one side and a bit on the other.  Every time I looked at it (which was a million times) I swear I could see the tinge of blue and it was driving me crazy!!  If it’s not positive on Friday I’m pretty sure it didn’t stick.
 
Anyways…Emily did slightly better at bedtime last night with her nap restricted.  It still took about 45 minutes, but oh we’ll.  And she was kind of cranky (for her, at least) in the afternoon and you could tell she was tired from her nap being restricted.  I don’t know if it will be worth it if she’s not as happy as she usually is just so I don’t have to struggle for an hour+ with her at night. =/ We’ll see how it works out.  And the earlier Input her to sleep, the earlier she wakes up, so I’m not exactly pushing for an early bedtime since she would sleep the same amount and have me up at the buttcrack of dawn.  Plus, this way if I get home late from work I still get a lot of time with her and when we go up to my Mom’s we usually don’t get there until late and it doesn’t matter because her bedtime is later anyways.  I’m starting to think teething might be part of the problem though.  Her teeth are a little crowded because of her frenulum that’s causing the gap in her front teeth, so since one tooth is still working its way up I think it’s bugging her.  She’s been chewing on things a lot and not eating well at all the last few days.  Maybe it’s all connected.
 
Now I need to put my phone down and distract myself until Friday morning! =)